In that moment,
Uncertainty, sadness, hurt, anger
I hear them karanga,
My atua, calling me.
I feel shame and guilt, as did Hinetitama when she found out who her real father was (go google the story to learn more).
I see my shift into depression as that transition from Hinetitama to Hine-ahu-one, goddess of death. A period of mourning, protection, of what is left.
I have always known the answers for life, living are in nature.
I just didn’t pay enough attention to them when I was younger, choosing instead to get caught up in society’s standardisation of living and who we are supposedly meant to be.
I feel that churning in the pit of my stomach,
A fire is building,
And I know that it has the potential to great things,
But also vey bad things if not handled with care.
I am being called for a reason, and instead of ignoring it like I used to, I feel it is time,
To stop, and let be what will be.
Only then will I be able to see what is needed without my emotions clouding my judgement.
Making that decision to surrender is tough.
But I feel a little lighter already having accepted it.
#Livepure #beyourbest #askhiria