Confession time – Showing up as my true self isn’t always easy

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Having courage to stand out.

That feeling you get when you are so excited about something, but nervous at the same time of how people will react.

That was me about a week ago.

I was at a writers workshop (to get me in my zone for my book, thesis), when the writing prompts we were given brought gave me an epiphany ( I seem to have these a lot this year).

It suddenly dawned on me that everything I have studied over the years, taught in school, uni and through the wananga as well as my time as a public health advocate, were all pointing to one thing – sports psychology.

When I was living in Australia back in my teens I wanted to come back to NZ and study psychology, its always interested me.  But my pull to do sports was stronger and I ended up doing a Bachelor of Sport and Recreation first.  It was in my undergrad years that I got a taste of sports psych and learned a lot of simple tools around how to excel in sports and why some athletes don’t.  And I got to cover this again in my post grad papers and coaching.  However I left it at that and went on to explore other areas.

There are lessons in everything we do.

I’ve played representative sport most of my life to a high level but I always used to ‘choke’ when it really mattered.   Choking is when an athlete focuses too much on the future outcome and the negative thoughts create that emotional reaction resulting in them choking.

I soon began to realise that I did this off the field too, in life, when I had big things going, important things.

Getting back to how showing up as me isn’t always easy, well, it takes guts to step out on your own and speak your own truth, anyone knows that.  So when I had this thought about what I should be focussing on, combining my strengths as a paddler with my education it made sense, but I had that little voice in my head saying “who are you to think that” and “what makes you so special”, my ego was really doing a doozy on me.

Love and kindness

I’m lucky I am now surrounded by some very seriously strong ambitious women who see how lifting others up helps lift us all and they reminded me to kick the mind chatter and that I got this.

So I decided to hone in my skills and focus on working with paddlers.  I made a name change from Mindset Trainer for women to Paddlers!

One simple word has the power to change so much.  It really is true.  Since doing this I have had lots of activity happening, posts, likes, comments and paddlers reaching out asking for me to work with them on mindset as they have seen with their own eyes my own transformation and progression in my paddling.

What I truly know for sure is we teach through experience, and if you have the knowledge to go with that then thats a bonus isn’t it.

I’m only just beginning.

All this work I’ve done on my self development, and I still have trouble stepping up into my truth.  But thats life right, forever learning, new challenges, new growth.  It’s the evolutionary journey of transformation.

Now that I have come full circle I can see where all my past experiences fit and I am totally making it work for me.  No regrets, just gratitude for the learning I have had. When I have those days where I feel unsure about showing up in my totality I remind myself of why I am doing this, and that is because I have a story to tell and feel deep in my heart that there is someone else out there on a similar journey that needs to hear it so that they too can step up and then pay it forward to others.  In the hope that we all end up living this life as our best selves in what ever it is we choose.

Thank you as always for taking the time to read.  If you want to follow me checkout my Facebook page  or check me out on instagram 

 

Hiria x

#imagine #believe #achieve

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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