View from Moturiki island, Maunganui NZ
Over the years I have worked in many areas as a Personal Trainer, Gym Manager, Secondary School Teacher, Public Health Advocate and now I run my own business. Through this time I have had many friends and family tell me how I have inspired them to do one thing or another. Funny thing is, I just do what I do because it’s what I know. Not to impress anyone else. I genuinely love to share knowledge and if I think it will help I will share. I often play down my life experiences and are one of those people who joke off a nice comment only because I feel embarrassed or at times because I think that if they could see the real me they wouldn’t think that. I say this because I have let past hurt and experiences get the better of me. I have always been sporty but when I hit my teenage years I truly rebelled! I was the student who used to fake being sick all the time to get out of Phys ed classes. You wouldn’t think that looking at me today. all I wanted to do was listen to music and eat junk food, like most teenagers. See the thing is, I lost my mum to Lung cancer when I was just 11 years old. it has been an interesting journey without her and I still wonder how things may have been if she was still around. I do also think that I would have the same motivation I do now though if she was either. Sad but true. sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom to motivate yourself to make your dreams a reality. I have suffered from depression since I was young, I put it down to losing my mum among other things that happened in my community at the time. I have seen counsellors and all but felt they were all text-book and tried to fit me into their little boxes. It never worked for me. I have always been afraid of what people would think but have since realised that people actually need to know. It’s difficult because i don’t want to labeled or for people to feel sorry for me. I am still me, I just handle things a little different and am learning as I go. I’ve had all the weight issues, drinking and all but got tired of it. I have always had this inner feeling that there was more to life and more for me so set out to achieve it. In the early 2000’s I moved back to New Zealand and started study as an adult student. I went on to complete a degree n Sport and recreation and then a Post Graduate diploma in Secondary School Teaching. I had truly caught the learning bug and carried on to do my sports and Exercise Masters then switched into Public health. You see, before my mother passed she did a documentary on her final year. This dock won awards in the US and became a useful resource in New Zealand Schools and health Centres. It also began my brother’s and mine careers in tobacco control. We are still both involved in it to this day. It was called July’s Legacy and it truly has become that for us. My passion for health, people and realising potential coupled with my study drove me to start a stand up paddle board school back in 2009. I have learned many lessons over this time and continue to do so. Especially around business and trying to manage family. I ended up burning out and had my third child prematurely as I came down with shingles which is brought on by stress. It was a good lesson for me. My boy is awesome and you wouldn’t believe he was a premature baby, being the biggest kid at his kindy! Last year I decided to give up surf comps and try to compete in Waka Ama (outrigger canoe). It took a lot of time and commitment from myself, my hubby and kids and again did my head in a little. I often felt guilty for not being with my kids but I had to remind myself of why I was doing this and where that negative self talk was coming from. so many people are quick to judge and really have no idea. I no longer listen to people who have not experience these things themselves. I have also come to realise that I have a choice and realised that through my dark days it was my choice to get better, no one else could make me, it was all me. There is a calmness knowing that i have the strength and ability to be able to recognise that now and feel empowered by that notion. The imagine, believe, achieve tagline is a mantra I used to get me through my training last year and it has stuck with me ever since. I see so much in it for me across the lard, personal, business, life in general. I try to get back to my childhood and using my imagination like a 4 years old. The freedom, not bound by what if’s or any negative thoughts at all. Just possibility. again believing as a 4-year-old, the beauty in it, Santa was real, so was the Easter bunny and the feeling that came with that was surreal. And achieving as a 4-year-old, accepting that all the small stuff are achievements is beautiful. The Aha moment, well it wasn’t until recently that I figured hell yes lets give this thing ago. I do have something to share. so set about to start a blog. I am a physical person so writing doesn’t come easy to me. It all just kind of blurts out on to paper. I’ve never been one for sharing feelings you see. But I figured If I can help one person then my job is done. If you choose to follow me I hope you find a little gem in here somewhere.
#imagine #believe #achieve